I feel... my life is so sucky! i shud jux disappear oud of the whole world..! I shouldnt hav born since baby... im nw super headache of 3 matters... 1 is cuz my idiotic maid is nw giving tat sucky face and was lyk scolding angry.. and next is abt him nd me.. the prob strts again i tink.. next is my mum,cuz of tat piano exams coming soon at july ,my mum was lyk saying i ev ting duno wana scold cher ...ya i duno.. im so STUPID,i knw~! stop giving me pressure can? I did prac ev.dy lehhx... wad eu wan me do??? Why all tis tings making me so idiotic sad.. i knw im idiot,fan,mad,stupid... so? shud i change?? I knw all its my fault.. all! And so i cried,and claire is in my house too.. i cried! why cant understand me? whuaii... i WILL PRAC 4 PIANO,I WILL!!!! tis sundy my ma say tis sundy i nid to ply those exam songs in piano to let my ma hear,no mistake,1 oso cant hav... thn i say ok la.. i really super headache! Nid to do my holidy hw finish too.. thn hw?? Hw??? hw ,wad,why??? now i did knw,i really knw... my smile jux exist tis morning,and ends jux lyk tat.. i knw 1dy i wont smile anymore,i hop i can disappear oud of tis whole world.. i dun wan to hav the feeling of sad.. i dun wan to feel anyting anymore.. i hate being lyk tis.. i hate eu berber!! Ber sux lyk hell!!! when i no mood,my fake smile may exist but i tink i wont hava ny more smile or laugh... Ber 's smile is jux 4 a moment and disappear within a while ltr Her laugh and smile does the same.. There will b sum dys all my smile and laugh wont exist anymore,even a fake smile wont.. my smile are dead.. ber is dead! i hate eu berber!! Berber sux... my ma wont understand miie.. every1 wont.. i wana say im bad badbad naughty stupid idiot so fussy and fan der berber! every1 shud jux hate miie.. scold miie wadeva all of eu 1.. bully me,scold me,beat me wadeva eu wan.. i hate to b lyk tis.. Ber hop tat she will b lyk herself last tym,the kind of cheerful and happy.. crying sux,being sad sux,quarrel sux,nagging sux,Ber sux even more! zhuzhu is rite,i m a idiot.. ~I hop to disappear or vanish oud of tis world~ Berber is dead,she is so sucky... Do hate her... I hate myself too!>.< ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thnx lots 4 those frewnx tat comfort miie.. I knw there's mani ppl do cares me.. but i ..... jux cant gt my feelings rite.. kepp getting the feeling of sad sad sad.. I hate crying and being sad.. It sux! and to lg: Tis aft noon really im scared... I duno... I really scared to mak eu angry.. I scared eu scold me..i Scared eu quarrel wif me.. I scared eu wana say tat word .. i wan eu to brk record.. i wan,and i will and i hop,i wish! I hop eu do tink so ya.. but nt jux to brk record ,and oso ll... last till very Long long long long long~ I scared when eu scold me.. But i dun mind eu scolding me,even though eu sumtyms do scold me vulgarities... no matter wad muaii feeling wont change.. nd i hop urs too.. lg,ily...muakx~ x33.. I scared at the end i will b lyk last tym,scared i will me lyk muaii gan mei too.. after tis .. i dun tink i will acept any of others le.. Ber nid jy in study.. but nw i can confirm guarentee and surely swear tat i lurbe eu whole heartedly.. haiiz.. nvm... byebye ily all~ I do hate my self sumtyms.. i do!
