To clarr and th rest, Im sorry i did not go 4 training today. I didnt meant to skip today's training.cuz at 1st i was sure tat i'll go derh but...sth happen los Plus i tink i had to say sth le.sth true. ev.tym the day b4 training,i had the kind of scared and stress,sth telling me to go,sth telling me not to go. cuz im scared.. training sumtym is tough..and i duno why ev. tym i did not do well in training,kept repeating mistakes again and again.. i try telling my self to jy..but i just kept doing tings wrong.i felt like im the most dumb person in th team.im sorry.. i'll go 4 next training de. but i duno how to explain everyting.. so i got to say im really sorry...
as 4 the nite b4 today,last nite.. its actually happen to my sis and me had a argument and quarrel.. it happen ytd..........
YTD!Tuesday.. tis is the note i wrote ytd nite b4 i slpt. tat day was terrible.. im fated to be like tis.. fated to be unhappy most of the time.. im sorry to,, i cant help u and end up emoing like u , no 1 could understand me ,like i cant understand u.i was just wishing u'll be alright. wad if i tell u i cant be happy, will u still dare stick to me? i cried terribly tat nite.. tears rolling non stop. sister have argument wif me.. they played in late night and actually i had decide to go 4 the training the next day, and was wanting to slp well. but my 2 sis just wont listen and kept plying in the room .. i not happy so throw their blanket and close the light and open the small light.. they turn oud throwing bks at me somemore ,thought im joking.. the ting is NO. im nord joking. and im seriously fed up wif them..so i threw all their toys on the floor plus those earrings tat they use to ply as food.. =.= jean,my youngest sister,strted throwing other tings at me and shouting to tell me keep those thrown tings,she kept shouting as if she's bigger than me..say wad will call me stupid from tat day,wont talk to me,wont 4give even i say sorry...
i wont say sorry derh.. cuz u 2 1st do tat to me.. i hate it .. i hate the way u all throwing tings at me and wadeva. kept laughing sumore.. while im really mad. just treat me as duno me barhh? wdf. as 4... im really stress and i giv up,i did not hav a gd slp but crying.and i felt useless all the way... cant face. anymore.. i cant help it.. it sucks.. i sucks too.. i just hope tis world can take me away.. disappearing 4 life. i wont mind.. im always lyk tis.. i cant be happy 4 long.. de and cus im fated to cry, sad ,living in sadness.. im sorry to *** too. i cant help u cuz i cant even help myself. i wan peace i wan silent,i wan u. i dun wan to feel stress in netball too. i duno wad im talking.. but all the way to ppl,im sorry. cuz im useless.
the next day and its today,the 2 just treat as nth happen the day b4.. and i was tinking i still rmb the scene ytd. Zzzz.
and i just hope u... ***, wont emo anymore. cuz i'll be end up lyk u.. u wan me to be happy,so do i wan u too. i'll always here 4 u.. and i knw u'll always there 4 me. i hope u'll 4give me. too. im useless. Zzzzzzzzzz.
bye.. ppl. i hope u all would understand but its like no 1 could understand.. cuz im lyk tis.
