10/03(ytd) what i wanted, theres no way i could have.Tats why i say: i want, but i cant.only few ppl discovered, bt i say NO. It cant b..cuz i knw if i let it oud, let it b , i'll hurt th 1 i love.. life is lyk tat..we gt to sarcrifice 4 sth.we gt to treasure.anyway when it all gt oud, there will jus b bad tings waiting on to b heard, nd ev. 1 may hate me 4 it. even i really mak it lyktat, bad tings may only happen, cuz its a fact tat......., nd i cant destroy a fact, or i'll b in deep deep trouble. its jus an illusion tat ran through my mind..its tis and nt tat.. its sth tat would nv happen nd i hop tis will gt off my mind tats y i say u cant b here i cant be there. we cant reach. theres no way to reach.... im stress when its always tat day.. im scared i couldnt make it, i cries.
TODAY! 11/03 today a stress day .. Today form class gt bak progress report..Wtf... I hop i can redo all those Ct.. I failed 4 Sub u knw.. u knw ... u knw... whuds the 1st feeling.. I feel lyk crying during music of the next lesson.. Th poor results ar..... Chi i fail: 49 (d7), and its jus 1 more fking mark. Sci I fail:40 Lit I fail:24!!!! wtf its th 1st time i gt tis kind of mark and i Really wanna hitt myself on my damm head.. DNT i fail i gt 45... My drawing sucks and i knw tat.. Okays those pass mark ar... Eng :60... Math:72(highest 4 all my sub) GEo: 63.3 Art: 63 I failed 4 and i pass 4.. Its lyk.. OMG!!
U knw whudd today Cher say abt tat damm pro JIE EN hu was in 1B last yr.. he is from NT last yr okayy!! And he gt 154 ferr his aggregate in his PSLE and he pass his result ferr so dam gd.. He's now in our class of cuz.. and his damm math gt 36/40... he gt distinction 4 his MATH! Walao... he's damm pro larhhs.. Duno whud kind of super power brain can work so fast.. Th ting is tat... OUR CLASS hu gt aggregate marks of 195-199 can lose to some1 hu gt 154 only ... u knw.. Its lyk ... I COUldnt believe tat.. he's lieing.. =.= BUts its a FACT!! Walaos.
Haiis. Then.. He win liao lurhhs. BERH lied BERH Fail BERH cries BERH dies. I lied to my parents. Jamie and me same situation.. our parents have not even knw tat we got Our CT lerhhs. my parents still ask me, When is ur test? cuz my sis who is p4 alr gt her result. she pro 1 larhhs. thn me.. I fail.. and sumore fail 4.. If my mother knw i actually alr had my test and alr even gt my results.. I SURE DIE! thats why i wana cries. I sux, REally a failure. but still i gt to face the consq.... so.. in th end mayb my parents tonite come bak i giv them the Progress report to sign.. they sure dun wan sign 1 lurhhs. and they will scold me lyk hell. dun let me use com..so mayb nows my last time using? thn sure confiscate my hp.. I DIES.. really dies. and i wanna CRY OUT LOUD!
today aft sch hav training, tired. claire more tired.. and she had blister around her leg and hand. she so poor ting larhhs.. we very tired super tired. Training warm up alr 20 rounds around the netball court liaos. i super tiredd. thn end training with 2 sets of staircase again.. OMFG... Pls.. Its wadd im scared when training is super tough.. b4 training strt i super scared.. duno why.. my heartbest fast.. now my hand will shiver 1 lurhhs.. cuz duno lehhs.. kept doing hard exercise.. tats y ..
I really dunlyk.. dunlyk.. dunlyk. I dunwan dun wan dunwan. Im super stress.. Super dun whud. I dun wana b in tis situation rite now,,
