I found out that everytime I know you're there , the anger is strting the fire in me . I'm like starting to dislike someone that is quite close to me . I don't know why . But everytime I think of the past that you had did , Those bad times flash through my mine repeatedly . I try noot to think about it , but i bet you feel almost the same too . Its really not fair when u can know sth while others can't. I felt all a while you are just acting in front of everyone to make them likes you .. I really don't know what I'm saying right now , but I just hope it isn't true. few dys writing diary or sth . Heard mei tmr mayb going lot1 , i scared ltr they saw me and im dead, even though tmr we are not going there but will surely pass there when home rite. I hope tmr i really can successfully go . Haiis . the tinking of worrying abt gting caught really makes me feel so no gd to even enjoy tmr movie. i really am scared . Idk if i can really go tmr but i will try cuz i promis them , cant pangsehh . Today's nite hop mum wont ask me many ques when i tell her tat i'll b oud tmr . Omg . God bless me . =x
