Paiseh bit blur,but only took 1 today.

Netball
I had given up 2 times. 2 pathetic times which i regretted.I duno wad im tinking of. Ya, seriously im nt mentally strong, i gt the kind of fear during trngs and drills . i ask myself am i thinking of giving up or thinking of achieving. i really duno. Why cant i try ?even though im scared .If there's 1 more changce, will i hang on or give up?im trying to tell myself not to think abt giving up, but can i ?i dun wan to let th team down .... i wan to try , but i duno i can tak it or not. My eyes are red when coach asks my question. I had let coach disappointed times and times... when can i really do well?Im like even worse standard than sec1s in court ....

Today aft training went home thn go mit ayk and vanna ,thn tgt go jasper's house . was lyk thank mum to let me go when im lyk dam piss off ytd for u nt believing me . we went there do finish scipt and rehearse once and im was lyk laughing all th way . Im tired tooo. Lols..
and u knw wad , im getting humorous which vanna mama said. hahas. times past so fast and thn home?jasper's bro which is 1 yr younger than him , which is sec1 ,looks smaller than javern . =x omg , no offence . but at 1st i thought he's pri sch student but he's sec1 . OMG . vanna says she thought he's a p1 student at 1st , but a sec1 actually . LOL

Today dam it i go buy lunch at lot1 food junction, th chicken rice $4 luhhs .. thn when ayk and vanna and me went jasper's house , th mrt station in bukit batok , there got chicken rice $1.80 only!! Omg thn they 2 gurls go buy luhhs . was lyk omg , i buy $4 and they bought for jus less than $2 . Dam it .. I very 心痛。 Zzz.. thn today only wear slipper , my foot pain . lols. at 1st mummy wan piggy back me but i laugh too much so put down . hahas .

i always say he is girl , she is a boy .. so when its a giirl , i will say he blablablabla..
and when its a boy , i will say she blablablabla. Lols so dun let me say th rite 1 .. hahas .