I just want one day to have fun , to spent my day , to have one day ... Just one day . But it seems that it is not as easy than i think , is a failure among everything . will that day be happy? you wouldnt understand the feeling , seriously seriously seriously im stuck between everything , trying to do something successful for everyone , but its so hard , so difficult . trying to do as much as i can , just to have that one day with them ... but can i ? Do i deserve that one day , advance?
Yesterday , today , like most of the time , quite busy with that stuff . trying to arrange properly . But i guess some of them wont be happy . Busy with this , that . Have to sms every single one , call and make sure . Receive comments , receive votes , to get things done .
one by one , trying to get away , giving xcuses . I just want one and only single day . Cant i ? Doing so much for a fail . Such a failure , like me .
How sad can that be? its like sth piercing through in me , feeling th pain , but cant shout pain , cant show pain , cant cry it out . didnt dare to show . just kept quiet , fake smile , no one will understand . Even i tried to tell someone , they wont understand .
Today isnt happy , Ytd was somehow worst too . Just freaking wanna get away from all this . this unhappy things . one by one add adding pains in me . Only make me couldnt get out of it.
one word , SAD
No mood , strting on that day. everyday isnt my day . feel like slping , and nv wake up from my dream .
