No matter how much you reall think it is , it do , one day it will change you without yourself knowing. feel like letting go , feel like walking off , feel like giving up , all negatively . maybe is i think too much. But im like expecting every moment to receive _____ , ur questions and everything that shows u really care. what if one day , you actually didnt care , but u say you do . Actually you're deceiving yourself too . The thing i learn , the think i knw , from drama , from anything else , from where i heard , is that even though u think you really do , you think it really is , no matter how much u really think u love , one day , just some day , feelings can change . It can change you . so.... this is what i believe easily , and hard to believe you . hard to believe what u said . (th past , and now)
Today went sch buy books with maid & 2sis . went sunshine place to buy things . sis buy staionary and stuff . I bought some , and bought sth to eat . forgotten that today piano , but lucky rmb fast enough . home aft bought everything .
home , had piano lesson . thought cmi , cus this few dys busy & tired, nv prac. But at least i make it through , at least 2 songs . :) practice scales . few months away exam le , jiayou!
Wonder tmr still have to go sch? not for trng , but other stuff? Hmmms. not sure . but they say whole day . I guess another tired day? probably not , idk .
i knw when i no mood , i think negative stuff , think too much , esp at night .... I get pissed easily , didnt want to do a single thing .... the feeling sucks like hell . Totally .
dont wanna teared anymore , i dontwan small eyes .
