Gone through many times ,
but never once , i could handle well.
i had experience the same feeling for many times ,
but never once , i could stay stronger ,
never once , i could leave it .
Perhaps th very 1st beginning , i believe it too much .
Thats why the feeling is so much like deceiving .

I never will never understand what you're thinking ,
cus i never will kow what's in your mind .


Yesterday evening , went my dad's friend's condo .
Hazel park condo i tink .
There got bbq .
Went there swim(kinda ps)
With sis and biao mei . (all kids manns )

Aft tat eat dam little ,
its so dam cold ...
dad drive family to a chalet , my dad's friend's chalet.
there bbq too .
eat dam little too , take care of that little naughty didi .

the whole day , mood isnt good .
This is always like that .
Mum treat me kinda well , but i get pissed in everything i do .
So sorry .

Home like late ,
i kept pester my mum to bring me home .
Cus i couldnt control that feeling anymore .
I wan home (thats what i say)

Listen songs all thway ,
cheered a bit .
But still so difficult .
Cant help but teared in car.

Home at last . NITE.

Today , go my ah gong's house ltr .
mum go buy bread , cus i say i donwan noodles .
But i told her i dont wanna eat .
and she went out le ,
called me and tell me eat a bit at least.
i said okay ( but actually i didnt =x )
SORRY mummy .

I feel like staying at home th whole day today , cus tmr sch le .
And stay at home is th best ,
but mum say go ah gong house better . if not i nth to eat at home .
but i dont feel like eating , perhaps the whole day today?

Idk . Ytd felt like breaking down .
But i told myself ,
im still who i am .
i live not for anyone , but myself .
GAMBATEHH .

its always hard to put aside .
Its always take times to cure th pain .
I tried so much ,
its always still the same .
Wan something simple is so hard .
Wan nth is the best .