I miss house . But i have to face the reality . but misses not meant to be . My house means that ....... a letter . I always thought that feeling since tht month, was all along a needed friend i want . Cus every girl needs a guy - friend . ( not boyfriend . ) But im scared , really scared its not just friend feeling , not those memories only , but more than that . I always thought what i miss is only those memories of us , but , no im wrong . I miss you too . Yes , my "house" . The feeling of facing back the reality tht what i wish for and wait for , will never come true , its hurtful . The truth is hurtful , but i have to wake up from the dream . I finally know those times i wish for a needed friend i want , Im waiting for , is not any other person , but tht person im always wishing and waiting for is you . I told myself , i have to forget those feelings . Cus those feelings are getting terrible/horrible , which hurts me . Just simply thinking of my "house" , i feel like tear.... Im gonna keep it to myself , keep it from you , and people out there . And my mission is to get over those horrible feelings .
Reality hurts .
Tues - Backbone checkup was the same , have to come back for 6month regular checkup . Wed - Early wake , have friendly match at SCGS with 3 schs . Went Vanna's house afterwards . Tmr going have study plan with Yijia . :)
I miss house .