It hurts a lot . A lot . A lot . A lot . :'(
Every single time i get back my results , i know my parents wont be satisfied . My parents wont be happy with my results . And what i can do is to tear , cry , and let them down . If only, All parents can be really understanding toward their child , and would care how they felt , instead of only cared about wht they think .
Mine , they thought that what they think is right , and what i think will definitely be wrong , thats why they never consider my feelings before saying anything .

I hate showing results to my parents or telling them about it . Cus , what i get , was all those hurtful remarks they will say , those hurtful words i dislike , those hurtful words which hurt me deep deep inside . What i want is that little encouragement , is that trust . Maybe i didnt tried hard , but im trying . But i dont like them saying that im not even trying . What i need is the encouragement , no matter how many times i failed , showing the support that parents will give their child . but i get non of them , not even ANY of my family members . My parents wont put themselves in other's shoes to think . They never understaand , and they never try understanding. They just think they're right , im wrong. thats it. thats the end .

When i said : almost the whole class failed that subject , my dad replied : I dont care how many people failed , as long as u must pass .
Its really hurting , it really does . And trust , When i say im really out studying , i mean it , and i did . I dont ply outside , but i did spend my time studying outside . What i needed is the trust , and im really really satisfied. Why cant that little trust ?

What hurts the most , were what they said .
You dont know ,
what you said , actually hurt me deep inside , and cause me to tear outside , and bleed inside .

Slep at 1am yesterday , and woke at 11+pm today .
Meet Jiawen at 2.30pm + , and bus to lot . Walking around , and sat at a seat near the BBT shop at B1 . Didnt know wht to do or where to go .
was planning to go library study , but public holiday , library nv open .
Knw tht pk is meeting glenn , danielle , jeremy to study at lot .
Thats why join them at food junction , studying .
Pk came late , but still join us .
Do some homeworks , and 5+pm bus home .

Was satisfied with myself having my day out studying for hours this 2 days.

ok , im done with my update . Tmr having dental appointment for checkups only i think . And wonder tmr got wht plans , should be with family bahhs . SIAN .____.

Completed a comic book and lilith book in ONE day . :)