Short fringe and rebonding spoil? Worse , because layer. Miss old hair . Hope my hair faster grow and re cut? Haiiiiiis . doncare how i look lahhs . Urghh . These few days am a good girl, trying very hard to finish my homeworks . but Amath a big problem to meeeeeee . :(

Temper
My temper getting bad to worse . Easy get angry . No matter who it is , im angry even i dont know you . okay i mean get irritated easily . Maybe only these few dys bahs . LOL. Change change , cannot like that .

Dark
I have gone darker and darker . Very dark , people all comment . ok not all , but many . Heard liao , feels sad lahh . My original complexion isnt dark leh . Sad much . how return to colour when today i just get EVEN DARKER . (due to daisytan carnival today) EEEEEEk , dontwant . i dont want be charcoal .

Carnival today
Todaay daisytan carnival , i plyed the whole game . GA GA GA . And once i played GS . Am tired , and played badly , and didnt get into 2nd round . I think its cause short of trngs for the sudden carnival that came . only had 3-4 trng tgt with daisytan team(mix of sec2,3,4 this year i mean) . And hardly someone coach us on game . So we just did what we can . Since this important , that why we as players also follow , cus its likethat . Was disappointed in myself for doing badly . like why my shots not in ? that why i cant even be like the other bdiv , im not up to standard . Why i cant know where to run? Why i rush? Why i throw wrong, and lose the ball to opponent? and then i said Shit , after i did a mistake each time on the court . AHHh . whatever.
Weak . Not strong enough . im noooooo goooooood .

Wierd thoughts
I feel im not a good person . im becoming bad ? in a sense of thinking inside . a bad devil in my mind ? and i know im bad , sometimes when i tot something that i shouldnt have thought of. Or do something , that its not me . I know i am , but why im likethat . idk . Should change my thinking. its getting worse , maybe because im weak in person . Im always being said by someone else , or make fun or , or easy bully , or easy criticize , or ........... etcc.

then that bad thinking in my mind get stronger , not weaker . Because i cant stand too much of it. Though i always endure what i could . I kept it inside , i dare not say , i act like i dont mind , but i do . just that i tell myself to get used to it , endure what i can . Or tell myself , forget about it. Forget it. this is what i thinking . But this makes me think badly . i dont think what i say make sense right now . cus i also dontknow what im typing , english isnt good enough , i dont kknow how to put my thinking into words to describe what im feeling/thinking .

Got to get that bad thinking off . i rather be the old me , though im weak ? i rather . cus i dont what that bad thinking in my mind keep adding and adding . anyway this isnt important , cus it doesnt happen always , just .... sometimes lahhs .

im done with a wordy post . im just updating what i can . Dont have to read . :)

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Stay strong , hold on , hopes up ,